EPISODE 4 • SEX ADDICT

SCENE DESCRIPTION: EMMA HIX MAKES HER JESHBYJESH DEBUT IN THIS SEASON 3 SCENE ENTITLED "SEX ADDICT". IN THIS CHAPTER, EMMA BECOMES JESH'S PERSONAL FUCK TOY TO FEED HIS MASSIVE APPETITE FOR SEX.

DIRECTOR'S NOTE: ADDICTION. WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE A SEX ADDICT? GROWING UP, I USED TO JOKE AROUND WITH FRIENDS THAT I'M A SEX ADDICT. BUT BY IN-LARGE, I FELT THAT IT WAS NORMAL BEHAVIOUR - JUST A HORNY TEENAGER BURSTING WITH HORMONES. BUT AS I GREW OLDER, I STARTED TO FEEL LIKE MAYBE I WAS MORE OF AN EXCEPTION THAN THE RULE. I FOUND MYSELF DOING RESEARCH ABOUT IT. OBSESSING OVER IT - ABOUT JERKING OFF, HAVING SEX, OR WATCHING PORN. I WAS ALREADY IN THERAPY AND I TOLD MY THERAPIST ABOUT MY THOUGHTS. I DECIDED TO EXPLORE THIS SUBJECT AND DIVE INTO IT. I WAS OBSESSED WITH SEX. I WANTED TO KNOW AS MUCH AS I COULD ABOUT IT. I READ BOOKS AND INTERVIEWED AS MANY POEPLE IN THE FIELD OF HUMAN SEXUALITY AS I COULD. I WENT O SAA MEETINGS - WATCHED ALL THE MOVIES ABOUT IT. A DECADE LATER, I FOUND MYSELF IN SITUATION WHERE I COULD FINALLY EXPLORE MY SEXUALITY AND POTENTIALLY CONFRONT WHAT I FELT WAS MY ADDICTION TO SEX. THAT MARKED THE BEGINNING OF MY CAREER AS ADULT PERFORMER. HAVING BEEN IN THE INDUSTRY NOW FOR SEVERAL YEARS, I'VE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I DON'T HAVE A SEX ADDICTION. NOR AM I HYPER SEXUAL. MOST OF THE PEOPLE IN THIS INDUSTRY HAVE AN INTERESTING RELATIONSHIP WITH SEX. THEY HAVE DIFFERENT REASONS ON WHAT THEY USE SEX FOR. FOR ME, I'VE REALIZED THAT I USE SEX AS A WAY OF FEELING POWER. TO FEEL LIKE I HAVE CONTROL OF OVER SOMETHING. SO THE QUESTION IS, WHAT DOES SEX MEAN TO YOU? AND WHAT DO YOU USE SEX FOR?